I only wish
it weren't so easy
to quit me.
That I was more
of a nicotine girl
lighting lungs
with darkness,
sending nerves
into nervous frenzies
when people finally
got their fix.
Or maybe even a whiskey woman
in a private booth,
the crutch of a broken man
with nothing left
but the promise
of inebriated peace,
of paradise found
at the bottom
of bottles.
But substances
have substance,
and then there's me.
day has become night
I am one with the storm,
My tears fall with the rain.
This memory,
It haunts me so;
your smiling eyes,
your warm embrace.
I still remember
your hand stroking my face.
it hurts so much
standing at your grave.
I love you so much
even though you are gone.
I can't let you go
Even though I should move on.
All I want is more time,
But I get none.
Your spirit is above me
Your tears joining mine.
The wind softly strokes my face
And I cry once more;
My darling ... Goodbye.
It came back to torture me.. by Qu33nBl00d, literature
Literature
It came back to torture me..
Why do I even bother anymore? Even when I'm happy..
It will always come back and torture me! u.u
I couldn't take it anymore..
It's red now.. my arm..
I know.. I was stupid to this..
but I wanted to feel something..
Just to know I was still here,
And not in a horror dream.
But sadly..
I've been in reality the whole time..
When you stepped,
Into my life.
Everything seemed,
To just fade away.
I thought..
I thought..
It all ended.
But..
I was wrong,
Once again.
Every night,
It'll come back.
Body's turning red,
Once again.
The pain is back.
And the relief,
That I'm still here..
And not in Hell.
I thought..
Everything ended..
But the depression hit.
And it hit me,
Hard!
Harder then ever before!
Why wont it stop?!
I was finally happy!
Every night..
I try so hard.
So hard not to cry.
Other nights..
I just there.
No movement.
No sound.
No emotion.
You came,
Into my life..
But it never..
Ever ended!!
i just want to be the girl
that houses all your
secrets in my bones,
don't worry they're strong enough
not to break under the strain
i saw your pain
and i wanted to be the girl that
could heal the fractures
you'd never admit
were there;
maybe i pushed too hard,
but all i ever wanted was for you
to be happy,
and if that means that i must
be the girl that walks
forever away
i will
even if it kills me so
because i love you
always have, always will
because you're the one that noticed
me when i was no one -
the only one that could truly make
my heart smile,
and i wanted to do the same for you
but it seems you won't let me
wish you could let me lo